Cold Thoughts - Andy Hughes Sister D - Kali Lamparelli Life Coaches - johnmac the bard Haircuts - Jon Bishop You Know Who You Are - Hollis Robbins Alice - Hollis Robbins The Singing Reporter - Peter McNiff Gooseberry Pie: A Disappointment in Three Acts - Katherine Parker Richmond Glasses - Laura Rodley Sequined Slippers - Laura Rodley Early Morning Dark Poem - Harry Calhoun I Found God - April Michelle Bratten Baked in a Pie - Bobby Steve Baker Often Lost and Forgotten - Phillip Gaber The Quilt - Jill McCabe Johnson Miscarriage - Jill McCabe Johnson Momma Comes Home on Sundays - Amy Corbin Belated Response to a Heckler - T.S. Kerrigan Steps Ago - Oleh Lysiak Manic Wurlitzer - Oleh Lysiak Sunday Morning - Larry D. Thomas Queer Pier - Brad Bisio Working with an Empty Sky - Casey Quinn Contact - Laury Egan At the Radiologist - Jane Rosenberg LaForge Derby, KS - Robert C.J. Graves Grievances - CL Bledsoe Tagged - Joseph Hesch Cash - Benjamin Quigley Serlin's Cafe - Kathleen Cassen Mickelson Surly - Matthew A. Hamilton Evil Eye - Karen Kelsay Palm Reading - Michelle V. Alkerton The Regret of Karma - R. Jay Slais The Girl Next Door - R. Jay Slais Station to Station - Doug Mathewson Return - Doug Mathewson Dad - Jonathan Dubow Ways and Plans - Brendan McEntee Visiting My Father - Brendan McEntee - She Keeps a Good Heart for Me Leo Racicot
I never knew a heart
could hold so much love; more love than the Earth holds ocean, more love than the Sky holds star. A love culled from a couple of kindnesses so small I had almost forgotten them but that meant so much to her, she still repays them in ways that make me shiver with Joy. This then I think is Love: not gargantuan valentines filled with pretty sweets, or florists of flowers or a promise too hard to keep but the memory of a couple of kindnesses made more than twenty years ago so small I had all but forgotten them. She keeps a good heart for me and I know I am loved beyond oceans beyond stars beyond Life...
Leo Racicot's work has appeared in Co-Evolution Quarterly, Utne Reader, Spiritual Life, First Hand, The Poet, Faith and Inspiration, Ibbetson Street Press, Shakespeare's Monkey, Poetry and Yankee. Two of his award-winning essay-memoirs are featured in "Best of..." anthologies, and his holiday story, "The Little Man" is being published this year by Snug Harbor Books and in animated and audio form by Fablevision. His public appearances reading his work include Out of the Blue Gallery, The Lily Pad, Cantab Lounge, Parker House, Forsyth Chapel, 119 Gallery, CityLights in San Francisco and Buzz in Washington D.C. Cold Thoughts Andy Hughes
and his glasses sink down
catch on the bump of his nose he does not notice, but smells leaves swirling under hot-orange lamps orbicular shapes of the deep blue wind and he cries and he cries and he there is a picture of Albert Einstein on the wall wearing plaid something surprisingly domestic the dark eyes look sadly back at him and he crosses his hands and they don’t stop shaking he is just close enough to the window he touches the cold glass with his finger and down on the hand is a thick, green vein he thinks he smells apples, and it’s that season again and the children over on the sidewalk are wearing red and pink and the cars are black and he touches the glass with his whole hand and his glasses are on the floor now and he wishes his heart wasn’t a fat rotten fruit he wishes he couldn’t see the glinting black seeds poking out like hard and eager teeth
Andy Hughes is a writer and graduate student based in the Boston area. He can be reached at wandrewhughes@gmail.com. Sister D Kali Lamparelli
Dark hair with blood red ribbons walks through the door; her tired black coal eyes stare at my blubbery body. I’m tired; I survived cancer. Her friend Laura brought her; Laura asked to borrow the canary yellow vacuum. She begins with her life and no name. She thinks her father was verbally abusive but that was so long ago, is she making it up? Dad gave her hugs and a few, “I love you” to wash down with guilt. If you can count them, are they worth as much? I say, “I’m not sure.” I pull a book from the brown shelf, Angry Women: An Epidemic and How to Love your Kitchen. Blow the dust from the cover, I’m just the therapist, licensed by paper and alcohol. She knows more than I know about Monet and The Beatles. Rising above an ocean, a school of guppies. My life hidden behind scripture, a fat nun with knees that beat each other up as I walk. Your answers, I want. I’m Dorothy, what’s your name?
Kali Marie Lamparelli is working on completing her MFA from Lesley University. Her
poetry has appeared in Gaslight Magazine and Balancing the Tides. Life Coaches johnmac the bard
I wander through Facebook,
now one of the largest countries in the world, and cannot believe how many people present themselves as “Life Coaches” They will help you to: • manage your time • enjoy sex more • use makeup more professionally • speak “like a pro” in public • seduce the one you want • market your product like Apple Computer • become a millionaire from your home business Do these people make a living? If so, why?
John F. McMullen, “johnmac the bard”, is a poet, author, journalist, technologist, college professor, consultant, and denizen of cyberspace. He is a graduate of Iona College and holds two Masters degrees from Marist College. He was an executive of two major Wall Street firms, an officer of three consulting firms (including his own), and has taught at NYU, The New School for Social Research, Marist College, Westchester Community College, and Monroe College (where he is presently Professor of Information Technology). The title poem of his first poetry collection, "Cashing A Check," won third place in the 2009 Writer's Place National Poetry Contest. “Cashing A Check” was followed by his second collection, "Writing In My Head," and the chapbook, “With A Chip On My Shoulder.” He is the co-author of a book on telecommunications, “Microcomputer Communications—A Window on the World” and was a contributor (with Esther Dyson, Ray Bradbury, William F. Buckley, Jr,. Thom Hartmann, Steve Wizniak, John D. MacDonald, and many others) to the well-ahead-of-its-time “Digital Deli”, the author of over 1,500 news stories, articles, columns, and academic papers, and the editor of “Web 2.0 The Magazine.” He is a native of the Inwood section of Manhattan Island and resides in Jefferson Valley, NY, with his wife Barbara E. McMullen, an educator and entrepreneur. He may be reached at johnmac13@gmail.com, on Facebook, Twitter and Amazon.com. Haircuts Jon Bishop
I’ve been getting haircuts
From the same barber For twelve years now. He knows my style, knows my name. I love coming in, sitting down, and Then he flaps the protective Towel-thing; the hair flies to the floor. I smile at myself in the mirror. My hair ragged and unkempt, But not for long! I tell Him, “I’d like one Regular haircut please.” He begins the process of Cutting, styling, snipping. We converse during. About politics, the town, The weather. Good conversation. With the haircut complete, I look in the mirror. Looks good—wonderful, actually. I pay him, give him a nice tip. He sends me off with a booming, hearty, “Come back soon! It’s been nice seeing you.” And he meant it. I leave. Go back to doing. I return some months later. Another haircut—a necessary Cutback to bring the appearance Back to a compatibility with things. Harmony. I’m shocked—it’s gone. The barbershop is gone. He must have retired, the barber. In its place is one of those big, Big fancy stylist-salons. I look at it, into it for a moment. And I can’t bear to go in. No haircut today: I walk back to the car.
Jon Bishop, 20, is a junior at Assumption College and double majors in Political Science and English. He divides his time between Wilmington, MA and Worcester, MA. You Know Who You Are Hollis Robbins
Your eyes are the sound of whippoorwills
Your eyes are double-bolt locks Your eyes are the taste of iron Your voice is the touch of the moon Your voice is the color of sails You voice is the rushing of tides Your face is the rushing of wings Your face is the sound of a choir Your face is the color of thunder Your hands lounge like sailors Your hands run like quail Your hands smell like rope Your eyes look like fists. Your eyes pool like tar. Alice Hollis Robbins
A crooked featured girl in patent shoes
Unfolded from the divan asking whose Absurd idea it was to make her choose Between her papa’s self-indulgent views On whether, post-Ark, there ought to be twos, Or whether love was something one could lose, As mama mused, with reasoning abstruse— Evening fell as both reached for the booze. Alice rose, knowing they’d amuse The neighbors with their malice and abuse, Reflecting that she’d no longer confuse Her childhood with Eden and must accuse Her Maker of malpractice. Would He use The quality of dust as an excuse?
Hollis Robbins teaches poetry and literature at the Peabody Institute and the Johns Hopkins University. Her sonnets have appeared or have been accepted at Mastodon Dentist and Per Contra. Her latest book is a Penguin edition of Frances Harper’s 1892 novel, Iola Leroy. The Singing Reporter Peter McNiff
in perilous times
in dubious towns on the phone with your back to the wall you will have to describe advise convey assert assess assay and disclose all that you know or were told or observed and defined from the fears and ambiguous doubts expressed in the most prejudiced terms by the utterly incompatible voice of the people. from each point of view you will chop out the dross and political drivel condense and distil the heart and soul of your piece in the form of a sonnet (without ever knowing how this particular sonnet should sound) when the moment arrives to sing under pressure by phone or a mike or a satellite dish —it matters not which— against time on the clock in the worst of conditions with too little space in the page or on air bearing in mind the number of words and the weight of your story told under stress with too little time to consider knowing all that you know you will summon each situation location expression facts and opinions colours and sounds and herd them over the contours of matter and mind while sirens wail through smoke and the dust raised in the carnage by those who rebel or compel the movement of trucks and armored divisions. then that curious sound a skirl at the back of your mind begins as a bumble bee humming a balmy crescendo and back goes your head as you break into song and the lyrics form ranks on the page and the flow begins from the murmurous deep of the mind. at last, brow in a furrow tight in the chest, you are through sign off and sigh with slight satisfaction knowing you just about made that damned deadline again.
Peter McNiff is a writer, photographer, web designer; an award winning television producer and has a silver St Bernard Hennessey/Irish Press New Irish Writing award. His short fiction has been broadcast by RTE, BBC; in journals and among anthologies published by William Heinemann (London) and Phoenix (London). Gooseberry Pie: A Disappointment in Three Acts Katherine Parker Richmond Hidden in the tall grass
gooseberries grow wild along weather-silvered fence rails low bushes heavy with translucent globes of pale-veined, whiskery green warm from hanging all day in the sun my fingers pluck through prickly branches weaving a delicate dance to the soft one-by-one beat of berries plunking against the bottom and sides of my battered plastic bucket. Nana measures butter, flour, sugar levels each cup with the straight side of a table knife rolls out a delicate crust eases it into a blue glass pie plate weaves a fragile lattice to crown the mound of berries at last commends her masterpiece to the oven and for a delicious hour four walls strain to contain the burgeoning aroma of buttery crust and bubbling berries. No sour scent forewarns that I’ve braved thorns for bitter fruit I suck my cheeks in hollow after a single sharp bite poke once at the sugary crust and with a sigh leave the rest still steaming on my plate.
Katherine Parker Richmond aspires to be the poet laureate of cheapskate moms. She lives in a big red ramshackle house in Ellensburg, Washington, with her husband, son, daughter and two long-suffering cats.
Glasses Laura Rodley
My father wears the thick glasses
of one who no longer sees what is outside as easily as he sees what is inside his memory. They call it macular degeneration for which he takes numerous herbs and Nattokinase, but mostly he keeps his eyes open, discerning the shapes that are his cat, his wife, his books, a movie he wanted to see, rather than close his eyes and see the movie running twenty-four seven of men in foxholes and the way my mother could not open the door when he found her one last time. Sequined Slippers Laura Rodley For Jean
I’m giving my friend a pair
of turquoise sequined slippers the kind she can clack on the floor so she can forget she’s a nurse having to walk quietly disturbing no one. The slippers have wooden heels and leather ankle clasps so she can walk her yard at night sparkling the sequins back at the stars. When she wears these slippers she can say whatever she wants without bending her head and keeping quiet, she can say whatever she feels and then put them back on the stairwell, lace up her work-shoes and walk back out again, get into her car and breath a dose of life back into the air at everyone’s home she visits.
Laura Rodley's poetry has appeared in the anthologies Crossing Paths, 911 Peace Project, Anthology of New England Writers, and in the journals Massachusetts Review, Sanctuary, The National Audubon Magazine, Boston Literary Magazine, and Quick Fiction, and has been read on WHMP, KVMR, 89.5 FM radio in Nevada City, California, and NPR-affiliated station WAMC in Albany. She is a freelance writer and photographer.
The pencil lead paints dark lines
looping across the page white as morning coming, the supreme antianxiety drug of brandy slipping down your throat, blessfully calming for the time being, and isn’t it always the time being? It’s still dark and here in suburbia the neighbors lights and street dusk-to-dawners strewn for protection shine out like stars, beacons, far away from where your father is dying, too soon after your mother, as the lights in the distance flicker on and off for no reason that I can discern, as the pencil lead paints something definite, sad but sure, something you can cling to proof that somehow, however unsteadily, you are working through this, something you can leave as a record
Harry Calhoun’s articles, literary essays, book reviews and poems have been published in magazines including Writer’s Digest and The National Enquirer. Recently, his online chapbook Dogwalking Poems and his trade paperback, I knew Bukowski like you knew a rare leaf, were published. The latter is now available from Trace Publications and on Amazon, Barnes and Noble and other online booksellers. He has had recent publications in Chiron Review, Still Crazy, SNReview, Orange Room Review, The Centrifugal Eye, Bird’s Eye reView, Abbey, Monongahela Review and many others. Recently, he was one of 12 poets invited to LiteraryMary’s anthology, Outstanding Men of the Small Press. I Found God April Michelle Bratten
He stands devoutly
at the sink, his bare feet rummaging shamelessly across the floor for reassurance that it is whole and still there. He performs a baptism on our dinner dishes from the night before, his hands as uncontrollable as wild birds among the suds. His arms elongate and dip the plate into the dreary warm water, and I see the earth shake a little from the kitchen window. He drags a wash rag across the outside of a wine glass, his fingers splayed like a religious history over our leftover damnations and offenses. I watch the light shift through the open screen and enlighten his chest and shoulders as he pounds another clean fork into the dish drainer. His face becomes the river of my body under the light, milking me straight and refined back to faith.
April Michelle Bratten is a writer from Minot, North Dakota. She has upcoming work in Leaf Garden Press, The Poetry Warrior, and Counterexample Poetics. She is the co-editor of the literary zine Up the Staircase. Baked in a Pie Bobby Steve Baker
The child
estimates that one hundred eighty seven red-wing blackbirds could perch on the rusted fence wire, between two aging gray and cracking posts. The child has learned to be obsessively numeric in an effort to save his parents marriage. The beauty of the bird, it’s sleek sheen blackness and arterial red shoulders, registers. In fact, the child feels a leap of glee, but soon puts the happiness away to focus on his client centered therapy. Clearing his throat and blinking rapidly he relieves the tension that is smoking up the car. He flicks his index and middle fingers back and forth one hundred and eighty seven times, to halt the welling up of tears from the passenger side of the Ford Fairlane, troubling up the highway of the Peninsula. The child is car sick but vigilant in good behavior that keeps control of assorted curse words, left over from last night, and always in danger of erupting in a threat to his grip on the tenuous atmosphere. Meanwhile the red-wing black bird gleans the field of decimated corn, banks against the ghostly gusts of care always distant, always near, always blowing hot upon the cheek of the child, who clears his throat and blinks his eyes rapidly and flicks his index and middle fingers to protect his precarious balance between difficult circumstances and terrifying possibilities.
Bobby Steve Baker is a practicing Cosmetic Surgeon in
Lexington Kentucky and enrolled in the MFA in
Creative Writing program at National University as a
Poetry Major. He lives with his wife, who is also a
Cosmetic Surgeon, and the comings and goings of five
sons. His poems have appeared in Poet's Podium, Jones
Av, Gnu, tinfoildresses, Public Republic, Strong
Verse, Divine Dirt Quarterly, and Yellow Mama. He has
been nominated for a 2009 Pushcart Prize. Often Lost and Forgotten Phillip Gaber
Ralph Ellison
wrote about the invisible man. But guys like me are invisible, too. Our life’s pace and lack of urgency make us almost impossible to find. We begin disappearing early in life, usually after our first kiss. And from that point on we seem to vanish in front of all who come within eyeshot of us.
Philip Gaber is a freelance writer currently living and working in North Carolina. He spends the majority of his day attempting to reconcile differences between his conscious and subconscious. In his spare time he tries not to drift around his community as an invisible spirit or juggle more than a handful of moral dilemmas at a time. The Quilt Jill McCabe Johnson
There is one left after all,
Mom tells me, spreading the quilt carefully over our bed. I knew I had at least one of your grandmother’s old quilts. Her hands though pained and hobbled ease the wrinkles smooth. For you. We admire the handiwork. Hundreds of hours spent piecing calico scraps into fresh flower gardens, log cabins, double wedding bands, stitching grandmother, mother, daughter like the top, batting, and back. Edged delicately. The tricks of an old quilter whose eyes and memory play tricks of their own. Keep it, she says standing proud, though her back leaves a shadow like a cane over this last offering. With no income, no husband, and no more than a few rooms on our second floor, she endures our daily commotions, she who has naught to give but the gifts of her mother who taught us both how to thread a needle. The knot catches in my throat. Mom it’s too much. The protestations strengthen her spine and she pats my hand. I want you to have it. Later my husband asks why the wedding quilt from our friends has been pulled from the closet where we said we would save it and now stretches across our bed. Who can explain such gifts? Miscarriage Jill McCabe Johnson
She resisted the urge to pat her tummy
when she spoke of the baby, six months along, due in June. Instead, she talked about its arrival, furnishing the nursery, buying toys. They’d lost hope, this miracle nature had denied, but now a gift. They met with the attorneys, drew up papers. Meanwhile, in Ohio, the mother circled arms over belly to cradle her slowly shifting child.
Jill McCabe Johnson received the Paula Jones Gardiner Poetry Award from Floating Bridge Press, and was recently nominated for a Pushcart. She earned her MFA at Pacific Lutheran University, and is pursuing a PhD at the University of Nebraska. Her poems can be found in publications such as Harpur Palate, Umbrella Journal, and Oak Bend Review. Momma Comes Home on Sundays Amy Corbin
When she calls
I always cry, beg her to please come home. “I can’t yet, Baby. Buy some food. Be sure to go to school.” I am twelve, but when night falls I am two. I weep in a tight, round ball, rock forth and back. By morning I am twenty-two. Eat granola, feed the cat, take out the trash, go to school— minus ten, plus ten, china doll, rubber girl, three more sleeps ‘til Sunday.
Amy Corbin has been published in Filling Station, The Cynic, Ascent Aspirations, Shine, Every Day Poets, Every Day Fiction, Haruah: A Breath of Heaven, Ignavia Press, Flask and Pen,The Battered Suitcase, Flashes in the Dark, Short Story Library, Smokebox, Wanderings, Writers' Stories, The New Flesh, Calliope Nerve, Concise Delight, and Boston Literary Magazine. Belated Response to a Heckler T.S. Kerrigan
Among that mostly listless crowd,
That heard me read my verse on stage, You rose alone, disruptive, loud, In incoherent drunken rage. The taunts you chose to shout were sparse, Denouncing what you heard that day; I thought you muttered “verse, my arse,” I stared, not knowing what to say, Confused by such obscure abuse. For not responding there and then, I tender now this late excuse: My areas of acumen Are literature, philosophy, Alas, not anthropology.
The second son of a postman, T.S. Kerrigan was educated in the public schools of Los Angeles and at the University of California and Loyola University, School of Law. He has been a poetry editor (Hierophant, The Raintown Review), a playwright (Branches among the Stars, A Thorn in the Heart, Bloomsday), a theater critic and member of the Los Angeles Drama Critics’ Circle, as well as a member of the California Bar, successfully preserving a statute enacted during the Great Depression to aid workers on public works projects from constitutional attacks in the Supreme Court of the United States in 2001. His poetry has appeared in chapbooks (Another Bloomsday at Molly Malone’s Pub (The Eventual Press, 1999) and The Shadow Sonnets (The Scienter Press, 2002) and in book-length collections in My Dark People (The Central Avenue Press, 2008) and in the forthcoming A Homecoming in the Next Parish Over (The Central Avenue Press), due out early this year, and in a number of anthologies, including Garrison Keillor’s Good Poems (Viking Penguin, 2004) and Literature and it’s Authors (Bedford/St. Martins, 2008). His poems have appeared in magazines and Journals on both sides of the Atlantic, including Acumen, Agenda (the American issue), The London Review, The International Poetry Review, The Southern Review, First Things, The Formalist, and The New Formalist. He was the first American invited to read his poetry at the Festival Internazionale di Poesia in the Italian Alps in the nine year history of that event. Steps Ago Oleh Lysiak
Ten years walking the beach with dogs,
today I’m ankle deep in north Pacific, conjuring breeze woven images alone. Surf licks away my barefoot tracks. Again I see the vet shave patch on Lily’s leg, look up for confirmation, slip hypodermic in her vein, ease lethal cocktail home. She’s gone before the plunger settles. We bury her at home. No need to watch for Lily following her nose intent on rotting carcasses or Cooper full out striding surf beyond recall. Must be a mile before I scan stacked flotsam up ahead for Lily, mist distant surf for Coop. They’re by our pond, in graves I dug but we’re connected still as surf roils soft erasing tracks made steps ago. Manic Wurlitzer Oleh Lysiak
In ever so faint daybreak
extravagant orange running lights define semis in receding strings out of undefined horizon. I unscrew stainless thermos cap, pour a six count. Daylight diesel at Wamsutter on a 50-mile dirt shortcut ducking tankers through high desert oil fields rife with antelope, prairie dogs and raptors as we skid anxious gravel curves for asphalt south. The manic Wurlitzer inside my skull shuffles, clicks, shifts into Motown before breakfast.
Oleh Lysiak is writing Displaced, a memoir, while he can still remember what happened. He is also writing Sluts, Scammers and Longshots, a poetry collection. He has written Scars in Progress, The Chromium Kid in the American Zoo, Barely Inside the Lines, and Filet & Release.
We’re sleeping in.
After waking, yawning, and stretching, we’ll stand, don our robes, hold hands walking toward the bath, glance at the full- length mirror, notice we’re showing our age, burst simultaneously into laughter, embrace, and muse our love aging like bourbon in the undisturbed bliss of a dark, oaken barrel.
Larry D. Thomas, a member of the Texas Institute of Letters and the 2008 Texas Poet Laureate, retired in 1998 from a thirty-one year career in social service and adult criminal justice, and has since that time published ten collections of poems. His most recent collection, an e-chapbook titled The Circus, was recently published online by Right Hand Pointing, and a book-length print collection titled The Skin of Light is forthcoming from Dalton Publishing in Spring 2010. Among the numerous prizes and awards he has received for his poetry are the 2004 Violet Crown Award (Writers’ League of Texas), 2003 Western Heritage Award (National Cowboy & Western Heritage Museum), two Texas Review Poetry Prizes (2001 and 2004), and a $2,000.00 grant from The Ron Stone Foundation for the Enhancement and Study of Texas History. His poetry has also received three Pushcart Prize nominations, a Poets’ Prize nomination (West Chester University), and four Spur Award Finalist citations (Western Writers of America). His Web site address is www.LarryDThomas.com. Queer Pier Brad Bisio
You moved away
when I was just a kid. I knew you as cousin but only through gossip and jokes made at your expense during family gatherings. This weekend your mom and dad and I drove out to the Queer Pier on Key West to see the stone that bore your name. She told me how you used to be afraid to walk the streets alone, especially at night. Said that people would taunt you: faggot, maricone. A backwards baseball hat guy with a t-shirt that read “Dix are for Chix” yelled at me from his Jeep. I guess he thinks that a shirt with the sleeves cut off and long hair makes you a homosexual. Hatred is everywhere even in this Key West haven. Your mom and dad still stay in your Fort Lauderdale condo. The Cockatiels and Yorkies are doing well. I’ve been watering your garden in the mornings and cleaning the birdcage once a week. Somehow, I feel close to you when I do these things, these things that you used to do. Your mother showed me the jewelry that you made from polished stones and the tray where you kept your marijuana. She never tried it but said you used to smoke for the nausea and to get your appetite back. I remember you being six feet two muscular and agile. The pictures from your last months show you fragile one hundred and forty pounds. In 1990—six months before you died—while riding on a ski lift in Vail, Colorado, my father told me that you were dying from AIDS. He said it like it was your fault, that you chose to be gay and this was your punishment. He said, “I don’t have a problem with gay people. I just don’t want to be in the same room with one. I don’t know what I might do.” He made excuses. Said that that was just how he was raised. Then he went on to tell me how upset my mother was and how your mom’s life was ruined because of what you’d done. Told me to be careful what I did because it affects all of us. By “us” he meant the family. Family? I don’t think that means what I want it to mean. But don’t take it personally. He doesn’t know what he’s doing. He’s a macho, hunter Hemmingway type who made this west key his home and had no tolerance for your kind either. Hatred, ignorance are all around even in the people we call geniuses.
Brad Bisio has recent work in Six Sentences, Mad Swirl, Word Riot, Ex Cathedra, Spot Literary Magazine, Dogzplot, CommonLine and in the Gutter Eloquence/Zygote in My Coffee print edition. He has lived in New York and California and places in between where he has worked numerous jobs to support his writing and musical habits such as at a lumberyard, a glue factory and as a house painter. He played in a band while living in Colorado and performed as a solo artist in San Francisco. For now, he lives in Nashville, Tennessee with his wife, young daughter and their two dogs. Working with an Empty Sky Casey Quinn
tonight
was nothing but blue with no jewels to dream upon all i could do was shoot off my own fireworks to pretend you were there. Casey Quinn has had over 150 poems published in print and online magazines. His second poetry collection Prepare To Crash was released in 2009 by Big Table Publishing. In his free time he edits the magazine Short Story Library. Contact Laury Egan
The cue ball rolls
across a green baize field, the quick kiss of ball to ball, the calculated encounter, as they strike, then flee, in degrees of angles. He watches from the bar, smiles, raises a finger to the bartender, points toward the woman. Another drink arrives in front of her, and with it, him. He’s tall and slim, slightly shy. Later, a quick kiss leads to a brief encounter; in the morning, in separate cars, they leave without a word.
Laury A. Egan has published a full-length poetry collection, Snow, Shadows, a Stranger, (FootHills, 2009) and has received a Pushcart Prize nomination. Her work has appeared in Atlanta Review, The Ledge, Emily Dickinson Awards Anthology, Ginosko, Diverse Voices Quarterly, Centrifugal Eye, Leaf Garden, Foliate Oak, and Boston Literary Magazine. She is also a fiction writer and fine arts photographer. Web site: www.lauryegan.com.
At the Radiologist Jane Rosenberg LaForge
Beneath the twenty-four hour clock,
the hours wind and shift as if factions of a root twisted against itself; as if a limb rendered fallow by spasm, or a snake’s hollow intelligence; and my sister’s body is surveyed for the places where her bones have failed, where they bubble like tar, like methane from millions of mammoth remains under pressure; where they snap and purr and drip as if they had been transformed into a mossy liquid: backwards, primordial, phages from before the Big Bang. Where the machine spots the flaws they tattoo Xs onto her skin, a terminal precedent for a palliative remark, skin being her first, last, and best organ, or at least one that has yet to dissemble into greedy pieces of hurting. For years my sister ran like an aborigine, naked to Xs and particles that now must be funneled into her bones with a senile focus, and I wonder whether the rabbis would still permit her to be buried beside her grandparents with those Xs on her false spots; to be buried beside her grandparents, the only ones who loved her unconditionally and who would be about the same age as the rest of the patients; to be buried beside her grandparents is all that she wants now.
Jane Rosenberg LaForge lives in New York City with her husband and daughter, and has poetry forthcoming in Anemone Sidecar, Grasslimb Journal and The Edison Literary Review. Her chapbook After Voices was reviewed in the winter issue of Boston Literary Magazine.
Derby, KS Robert C.J. Graves
Once was a town where the 1880s
could still be felt in the small streets despite the Bicentennial. The alleys were thick with tall trees; green apples littered the narrow sidewalks, and kids all went barefoot mostly and threw rocks at each other. The rain would pour, and the streets would become rapid streams rushing to the spillway that winds southwest to the wide shallows of the Arkansas. The post office and water company were still small wooden buildings leftover from the days when Derby was El Paso, KS, back in the 1880s, back before the railroad owners decided that the hamlet couldn’t have the same name as a famed border town, so they changed it. Ruins of old docks, left from long past days of navigability, rotted along the banks of the river, and teenagers would wade and swim out to a traveling archipelago of smooth river sand to build campfires like cowboys and drink their fathers’ beer while cars zoomed over the bridge leading to the peach orchards then on to Haysville, where the enemy elements of kid-dom and high school lay. Catherine Coles was a fox; the elementary school echoed in one outer corner, at the edge of the blacktop, like a seashell. The water pipes, maybe. And it was cool there in late August heat, so we kissed. October nights stretched with storm chills and the rock mystery of years. Without so much as a nod from a knowing passerby: new housing editions, new streets, new stores: Everything changed as if destined, and the old post office and water company were bulldozed to dust. "In the room the women come and go. . ." "When the rain washes you clean, you’ll know. . ." Televisions burned blue holes in drapes still with night. We slipped out bolted backdoors to prowl and peek on our friends, huddled in their beds. Their fathers’ rifles hung safe on some wall. The police’s spot-lights missed us lying belly-flat on the steep grassy grade, descending to El Paso Elementary, while wild-grain foxtails swayed naked in the beams. Soon there was an arcade and roller skating, so we drank cherry vodka, then doused our self-consciousness in Polo cologne. Her breast was soft in my hand, under her bra at the movies, in the back row, atop the slope of the old theater in the glare of The Love Bug Goes Bananas, and darkness long reigned liquored years from girlfriends to crimes: the neighbor’s wife, wet earth, a familiar scent in the air. And strip malls spread their vast, rolling blankets of vaporizing asphalt neat-cornered on widened streets that never fill with rain. Ineluctable as a heart broken by the most prized and impatient lover, and the phone lines snapped in December ice.
Robert C. J. Graves lives with his wife, Emily, in Emporia, KS, where
he teaches general education classes at Flint Hills Technical College.
His poetry and fiction has appeared or is forthcoming in numerous
journals, including 491 Magazine, Bijou Poetry Review, Chickenpinata,
Crash, the Chiron Review, Eclectic Flash, Eleutheria—The Scottish
Poetry Review, Haiku Ramblings, The New Flesh, Poetry for the Masses,
Prairie Poetry, Vox Poetica, and Word Salad Poetry Magazine. A former
bartender and freelance sports writer, Robert holds a Ph.D. in English
(Rhetoric and Writing) from Bowling Green and an M.F.A. in Creative
Writing (Poetry) from Wichita State. Grievances CL Bledsoe
Your body is a drug, and now that I’ve had a taste,
I’m addicted to your warmth. Remember when we used to share my twin bed, you mashed into the wall, me, on your head, snoring. I made piles of the books I read each month and tried not to drop out of the world. You shared an apartment with a gospel singer named Princess, made things to eat I still can’t spell, and tried not to cough when I stood under the oven vent to smoke. You’ve never forgiven the fact that I deleted the first messages you sent me because I didn’t know who you were. Now, I know: you are warm, and you are quick. I’m slow and wear socks to bed. But I did your dishes, those first few times I came to visit. Remember that, if nothing else.
CL Bledsoe is the author of two poetry collections, _____(Want/Need) and Anthem. A third collection, Riceland, is forthcoming later this year. A chapbook, Goodbye to Noise, is available online at www.righthandpointing.com/bledsoe. A minichap, Texas, is forthcoming from Mud Luscious Press. His story, "Leaving the Garden," was selected as a Notable Story of 2008 for Story South's Million Writer's Award. He is an editor for Ghoti Magazine www.ghotimag.com. He blogs at Murder Your Darlings, http://clbledsoe.blogspot.com. He also writes a flash fiction serial called "The Idealists" which appears every two weeks at www.troubadour21.com/category/series/idealists. Tagged Joseph Hesch
I painted my name on a bridge today.
Tagging, the kids and cops call it. It’s a young person’s game that guys of fifty-something probably shouldn't do, and definitely shouldn't be caught at. Not that the cops would have difficulty nabbing an old dude holding the outside of an overpass, and his breath, with one hand, and exhaling urban art out a can of spray paint in the other. I painted my “Jo-Ho wAs heRe” in red and yellow, not because they’re my gang colors, but because black, white and gray are what my life has become; row upon row of blurry near-anonymous obituaries— gravestones on a newsprint field. The Great, Mediocre or Poor American Novel never sprung from my mind and fingers, nor did anything else you'd remember. So I decided to write my story, my poem, on the bridge where each day for fifteen years I’ve rat-raced past “Bobby & Lou ’72.” Thirty-eight years of notoriety seems like a lifetime—and an instant—to a guy whose life has been tagged by Life in shades of gray for longer than that. Yeah, and I willingly held its hand and slipped it the cans. But, no more. For some reason, I'm seeing more colors these days. Reds and yellows, greens and blues. So, "Tag," Life. Now I’m IT!
Joseph Hesch's career as a writer spans more than 30 years in journalism and public affairs in upstate New York. He resides near his hometown of Albany, New York, a 350-year old city from which he draws much of his inspiration. His poems have appeared in previous issues of Boston Literary Magazine, as well as Wanderings Magazine, With Painted Words and Falling Star Magazine. Cash Benjamin Quigley
I count out twenties in the till.
These green roads have mouths, speaking pidgin patriotism, broken religion. But fluent graffiti: “Do you think a million of these would make you happy?” A letter that pays its own postage and pens its own destination. Cash, you who soaked up spilled beer and laundry detergent and smog bounced back like a carnival target at the shooting game, crumpled but still good. My friends who played you like music, who clothed themselves in you or who rode you like a wave: not all of them could tumble dry in the bartender’s jeans after. You had messages for them too, too far away for me to read. And I can’t send a message back to the guy offering the hypothetical twenty million. So I seal your smells of sweat and tough, green paper into a plastic bag and drop you into the safe, and think of your small holdout of brothers wrapped in leather in my pocket, and shiver a little as I leave work.
Benjamin Quigley teaches middle school forensic science and reading in Louisville, KY. Before that he studied literature and biology at Vanderbilt University. Serlin's Cafe Kathleen Cassen Mickelson
You recognize the smell of bacon grease,
hash browns, back-burner coffee as you pass through the glass front door. A waitress of indeterminate age leans in the doorway to the kitchen, her uniform slightly dingy with hard work. She smiles, ready to listen to your request. A booth beckons, its hard wooden seat smoothed by years of bottoms that have slid across it, then settled. Laminated menus show greasy smudged fingerprints, tout the virtues of breakfast number one: two eggs, choice of meat, white or whole wheat toast. Coffee is endless, much like the chatter of the elderly couple in the booth across from you. The old woman lifts her coffee cup to her wrinkled rouged lips, sips daintily, returns the cup to its saucer. You think you recognize that shade of red as the one your mother wore, something French. Was it Rose Sensuelle? Her gentle portly husband reads the newspaper to her. You watch as she dabs her napkin against her mouth, smiles at him, reaches to touch his hand. Her gesture presses on your fumbling heart, nudges your loneliness into the open. Your breath is a slow, steady ache as you grip your fork, wonder whose hand you might reach for and whether anyone has noticed.
Kathleen Cassen Mickelson is a Minnesota-based writer who works in multiple genres. She is also an editor at the online poetry journal Every Day Poets. She is delighted to appear in Boston Literary Magazine. Surly Matthew A. Hamilton
Notes spring from the jukebox,
jumpy and loud and full of smoke and the foamy smell of beer on tap. I don’t know why I’m here. A co-worker’s birthday party, I know that, but I didn’t have to come. I could have easily phoned in sick, stayed home and watched a movie. I don’t like bars; never have. I don’t like most of the people I work with. Smoke rings spin and float into nothing, colliding with each other, forming large and nerve-racking boredom clouds. They encircle my imagination. I take my last sip of bourbon. The ice jingles in the glass as I shake the last bit out. I was going to stop there, but then I see Tom, Tom from sales. He guns me down with his index finger and smiles. He’s an idiot and I’m glad he works 10 floors above me. I order a second round, this time straight up, and turn my eyes and thoughts to the dance floor. Tracy is swinging her legs and climbing the tables. She is stopped as soon as she removes her shirt. She’s an idiot, too. We are not in that kind of bar. I order another. Eight bourbons later I see Heather, the receptionist. She’s looking hot. I don’t see a woman whose face normally looks like silly putty smashed into the Saturday Morning Comics, but a luscious go-to-bed-with-me- tonight body. Woozy, I stand up, stumble, grab her waist, say I want to dance. She giggles. The bourbon titters in my stomach and rapidly climbs inside my head. And we dance. We dance for hours. Tom guns me down again and I give him a high five. I try to convince Tracy to take her shirt off. She nudges me away and slaps me in the butt and I like it. She does, too, and gives me a wink, slips her number inside my pants pocket, keeps her hand there for a really long time, until the blood rises between my legs. I go for the beer next, order a round for everyone, then a second and a third. I’m not as surly. I’m starting to enjoy myself.
Matthew A. Hamilton is a US Peace Corps Volunteer serving in the Philippines. After service, he plans to pursue an MFA in Creative Writing. Evil Eye Karen Kelsay
It's back again, the stupid dove,
the one Mom really resents for nesting in her potted lantana and flattening all the flowers. This year, Mom hid the plant and the bird settled in an empty bucket on the balcony, boldly announcing its arrival with flutters and coos. After months of monopolizing the corner, for its last egg never hatched, Dad dared Mom to snatch the egg during the dove's evening flight, dye it for Easter, then slip it back into the nest. But the dove gave them such a nasty look before leaving, Mom chickened out.
Karen Kelsay is a native Californian who spent
most of her childhood weekends on a boat.
Her husband is British, and she travels to England
regularly to visit family and enjoy the countryside.
She received a Pushcart Prize nomination
in 2009 and is the author of five chapbooks.
Some of her recent poems have appeared in
The New Formalist, Divine Dirt, Lucid Rhythms
and Camroc Press. Palm Reading Michelle V. Alkerton
this painful split
that appeared in my fate line disturbs me while closer inspection reveals no life line in either palm my hand is the shape of fire though it’s hard to imagine that the ocean of knowledge knew I’d been burned research presents conflicting accounts of palmistry’s origin as two cultures establish opposing beliefs either my fate is controlled chiefly by outer forces or clues of my hidden potential help determine which direction I choose
Michelle V. Alkerton (formerly Lohnes) is an artistic spirit who cannot contain her excitement when inspired. An internationally published poet, she thrives best when close to nature and enjoys the therapy her writing, art, photography and other creative outlets provide. The Regret of Karma R. Jay Slais
The ex wife phones after 2AM frantic
barely able to speak, and I whisper so the kids do not wake up. She says her new boyfriend just killed her, but she came back to life after he had removed his ugly hands from the strangle of her neck. She tells me four separate times about how blood is able to leak from every skin pore of ones face when you die like that and then are allowed to live, but I hesitate, contemplate… each time, when she asks my opinion for whether or not she should call the police to come, remembering how, just a few years back, the aluminum baseball bat she swung cracked the bones of my forearms protecting the pores of my face from getting bloodied. The Girl Next Door R. Jay Slais
As we drive down this dusty dirt road riddled with bumps,
we slow down, sometimes swerve to miss bigger ruts while we are on our way to visit her makeshift memorial. It’s still there where she died, one year plus after the accident, a shrine in the weeds on the northeast corner of the intersection; her car had been pushed fifty feet further off the road, the tire’s gouge marks in the dirt have already healed. There are still too many unanswerable questions. Did she think it was a four-way stop not requiring her to yield? Did she look but not see the huge truck coming from the left? There are fresh flowers, faded ribbons, a teddy bear, a Halloween mask, Christmas boxes, candles and crosses, a graduation cap, and a handmade “we miss you” sign wrapped in cellophane from a friend’s kitchen. She and her family were new to our neighborhood, moving next door two months before her senior year started. This was the first time her parents had let her drive to school, they asked her to take the back roads feeling they were safer. We both backed out of our driveways that morning at the exact same time. I waved as she passed. One day after attending her funeral, I talked to her step dad out in his yard while he was smoking a cigarette. Nerves shot, he felt the need to tell me all of the details of what had happened three days before at the hospital, how they were not allowed to see her for a while until they had spoken with the hospital priest who tried to reassure them she did not suffer. Their suffering really began as soon as they finally saw her; they were left alone in the room with her laid out on a gurney, the top of her head missing from the truck bumper’s impact. The county road commission has added two stop signs finally making that intersection an all-way four-way stop. Now everyone will stop their cars. Remember her.
Some of R Jay Slais’ publications include poems at Barnwood Poetry Magazine, Boston Literary Magazine, MiPOesias, Oranges & Sardines, The Pedestal Magazine, and Rose & Thorn Journal. His first collection of poetry, Mice Verses Man, was released January 2010 from Big Table Publishing Company. A single father raising his two kids, he writes from his home in Romeo, Michigan and makes a living as an engineer/inventor for a Metro Detroit automotive industry supplier. Station to Station Doug Mathewson On the sidewalk,
by the pay-phone, someone dropped a thousand peso Golden Garcia and I used it to call you. That must have been enough. Connecting me and Mexico City with you and Oklahoma City, but there was only your machine. You visit your Mother on Sundays, since she got sick. I felt so foolish not remembering, suddenly unsure what to say. I didn’t leave a message. Return Doug Mathewson Got back around dark. You were sad, and hadn’t got out of bed all day. There wasn’t much in the house. I lit a candle. We had hummus on crackers, and lay close. The little flame warmed us. It would be ok.
Doug Mathewson lives on the Connecticut shoreline. He writes very short fiction that occasionally changes of its own volition into poetry or essay forms. He has been published here and there online, most recently at The Boston Literary Magazine, Doorknobs & Body Paint, and Six Sentences. His current project, True Stories from Imaginary Lives, can be found at www.little2say.org. Dad Jonathan Dubow You are at war with your body. Once, you contained it viciously with cottage cheese and exercise, but now it overflows its borders. It fires gallstones and polyps, shocking your delicate nerves. It keeps you awake with the hostile sounds of apnea. It has blockaded your heart. Because your father’s body had no chance to decay, you ignored the sacredness of your own, bloating it with bagels and kugel. And when disease came, you armed yourself with prescriptions and began a war of attrition. But you and it occupy one space, and the shrapnel of each pill that enters your bloodstream calcifies your mind. You continue to rupture its strength with French fries and Zetia*, but what certainty? It has blockaded your heart. I hear your snoring through closed doors, and in the mornings your hypotheses of war.
*Zetia: A cholesterol medication. Jonathan Dubow is a recent graduate of Oberlin College with degrees in English and Creative Writing. In the spring of 2009, he won the Emma Howell Memorial Poetry Prize, and was runner up for the Academy of American Poets Stuart Friebert Prize. He has work forthcoming in Mobius: The Journal of Social Change. Ways and Plans Brendan McEntee
He spoke to his mother’s corpse through his sister’s cellphone. She sat with the body, ten minutes too late to watch the death. He leaned on the bathroom sink in the back of the stockroom in the dark. She set the phone on speaker. He mewled apologies through the air, noise became his voice She cooed and shushed and made sounds for consolation. He washed his face, raked his hair, considered ways and plans. She sat in an office chair with the body for an hour more. Visiting My Father Brendan McEntee
He shakes and shakes my hand, this father, with three more falls since April, who doesn’t know me or claims not to know. “Thank you,” he says (Glycerin tears. Broken voice). And we shake hands. I touch his forehead, leave him facing rain and rain-soaked conifers.
Brendan McEntee is a native New Yorker now living in Vermont with his wife and an ambivalent Jack Russell Terrier named Cordelia. He achieved his M.A. in English from Hofstra University and is currently the poetry editor of Triggerfish Critical Review. His work has most appeared in Nomad’s Choir, The Iconoclast, Perigee and Prick of the Spindle. |
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